PRAY

Today my heart trying to reach you again

But I keep on pushing you away

Because of my selfish side

Even how much I want you

That is how much I don’t want you

I love my life so much

And I also love you so much

But I am so selfish

So I throw you away

Every second, minute and day

Because I love myself and my life too much

For you who is I always see as a burden

I once had a thought

If I died before I met you

So my life will be bless

But having you here

Is a bless with a pain

I want to live my life like I wanted to

But I still want you here

So I want to push you

Because of the love that is so hard to handle

The waiting is so hard if you are with me

So throwing you from me

And keep praying is what I only can do

I want you but I love me too

So I asked God if you are for me

Please bless us and make him mine

For I always have to endure so many pain

Just because of my love for him

So Allah please holds me

In every second

So that I know

If I love someone

So he is meant for me

 Because of you

So till now

Please holds me

Take me

Grab me

And keep me with you

So I would not wander

In a wrong way

Until everything is being blessed

By You my dear God

Aaamiiiiiin

I’ll Be Here : To Kim HanBin

Wait For Me

Hearing those words

From your beautiful lips

Wondering again

Is it real or fantasy?

Is this feeling really hurt us or not

Or it is only because the loneliness in me

I’ll wait for you

I want to say that

But I never even trust myself

And I know I cannot even trust you

But I know my love is real

And it scared me

Will I have this love?

Or will it just pass away like the winds

I want to wait for you

Imagining you’ll becoming the person that I really wanted to

But I know nothing is easy in this world

But I still have faith

For you and me

As if it is true love

I keep praying

For you to be mine

And my greed gets bigger and bigger

And I wonder if it is torturing you

I’ll wait for you

I want to wait for you

I really hope I can wait for you

But I don’t even know myself either

And I wonder if this real love?

And seeing your face again this night

I hope for the best

For my dear love

Because I know

I want to wait for you

But I am not the perfect one

First Kiss in First Love

That night when I met you

The first kiss that I had that night

Now I’m wondering if it is even true

Like a Hollywood movie

I try to believe something that is so unreal

Till now I still get caught in this feeling

Did you feel the same

Or is that sweet smile is for someone else

That I always thought it is for me?

I have become a sinner for this feeling

I can’t even control my feeling

But my heart always wavers

Of the thought that it is all a dream

And from that night

And that first kiss

I really cannot forget about you

Getting greedy for you

Wanted to keep you by my side

But sometimes my heart wavers

That you are not for me

Today I am still thinking about you again

Today I am hoping again you are listening to me

Today I am praying again so that you can be mine

Today I am thinking again are you hurt because of me again

For you must not know

Everything about you makes me worried

Everything about you is precious

And I always trying to push you away

For I am not that perfect one

But my love for you make me being greedy

For wanted to be with you

Forever and ever

I Need to Say This

Dear Kim Hanbin or B.I

This is a letter from me to you, as a longing fan, who will always love you. Just for you to know I had written a forgotten letter before that I don’t dare to send to you. I don’t know whether this letter is important or not same like those forgotten letter before. But this is the only way for me to say that I can’t forget you. I hope this letter can’t be sent too. Because I don’t know anymore what is the truth about me and this feeling. I just hope you okay and happy, that’s all. And don’t ever forget me if I ever exist in your life and your mind. You already answer my letter and I am glad. I just think like that, I’m sorry. Whatever you do please be happy. Live your life well and you know I will always love you and will always pray for you and iKON. I’ll wait for you like others iKONIC. Please be healthy and happy.